Therefore, continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling.

I am now a master archer. I'm trying to write an eerie melody with the right rhythm that I can practice archery to in the morning. Perhaps it will help me memorize scripture again.

Maybe I can start over new here. Maybe I can learn to value myself without looking through someone else's eyes. Maybe other people will see me the way God does. Maybe I have inherent value. Maybe I can work hard, be filled by the Spirit every day, and be poured out like a drink offering, without being abused.

Maybe I still have a lot to offer someone.

Maybe, I don't need anyone. Maybe I just need Him.

But if I have Him, why do I still feel so wounded?

Here's hoping for a broader perspective.